I'm not sure what week in the year it is, and I don't think I care.
This week has been good for us in a lot of ways. We had our first $1000 day followed by a $400 day. We're getting customers and referrals and projects. We're doing well.
But I, personally, seem to be spinning out of control. I've realized, yet again, the depth of my lack of self discipline. I can't seem to make myself say no when it comes to the things I want.
As much as I hate to admit it, I'm spoiled.
Un-spoiling yourself at 20 is hard. In fact, it's downright painful. And for someone who (for some god-awful reason I don't understand) relies on things like sweets and fast food to manage stress, it's also crucial.
I've started crocheting, which helps. It probably has something to do with a feeling of accomplishment, a feeling that I *can* get something right. In times where our survival is so far out of my hands and I have to admit to strangers and their pushy little girl scouts that we just don't have the money for cookies, that feeling that I can make something come out right is really important to me. The only issue is that it's not helping enough to quell my embarrassing desire to shove every fatty, sodium-rich, or sweet food into my mouth.
So this week was good, but painful. And now I have to figure out where to go from here, because it sucks to feel like you're not getting something you really want because you're not strong enough to say 'no' to a doughnut.